This all started with my friend and I playing Super Smash Bros. Brawl. I was good at Brawl and I happen to be very arrogant of my skills beating my best friend (which most of the time the online matches were very laggy lol). I want to be better at smash than him, sometimes I would tell him to get better at brawl. The worse thing I have do is telling him the score on how many times I have beaten him. (I wish I could take that part back though). When we heard that super smash bros. 4 was announced, my friend was extremely determined to beat me. I felt like I can still beat him in that game too. But.......That part went left really fast lol. My friend was dominating me with his main (Zelda and I like to pick Rosalina) and majority of the time he was winning overall. During those times, I was really salty and most of the time I wouldn't talk to him for beating me. Honestly, my inner feelings about losing was really changing my personality (Yes I was still arrogant though lol). As time passes, my friend was getting stronger and more determined to destroy me, but I still believe in my abilities to win. Unfortunately, I kept losing and I was more furious than ever. A part of my inner self was hurting on the inside because I didn't want to admit that he was good. (Now that I mention it, it feels like I consumed some hatred like I'm not finding the purpose for playing Smash. Now I'm being like Ryu when he deals with Satsui no Hado. I don't know why I thought of that reference lmao poor me). The negativity inside me was going stronger and really didn't know what to do. I still want to beat my friend and I still didn't admit to him about his skills. Eventually you would think that it would end right? Um....Not really. Under a month, I have suffered a devastating loss record (more than 30 losses and I only won a few). When we stop playing, I want to be quiet and not think about the losses. I tried to hold my grief but I had an emotional breakdown and I started to cry.  I didn't want him to see me having this problem but my friend felt bad for me feeling this pain. (The moment that Serena cries and cuts her hair, that's how I felt. Again references lol). I felt I was not good at the game and I was ready to give up. My friend ended up apologizing to me about this but all of this was my fault. I have let the negativity consumed me (This right here was karma...Karma!! lmao). I felt really ashamed and I gave smash a break. Something about smash just makes me want to play even if I'm not good. Before the year of 2016, I want to be better at the game and I really want to accept losing better. I felt better overtime when I switched to Kirby but I still have my downs. The reason is I don't feel like I can win with a certain character. I tried Rosalina, Kirby, Fox, Falco, Yoshi, Ness, Pikachu, Ike and Marth but the closest characters I'm okay with Kirby and Marth. But now I'm more okay with losing and I don't classified myself being overly competitive. I'm just in between casual and competitive and it feel great actually. I wasn't really interested trying to be the best but I was looking forward to have fun while playing with competitive people. I know it's a game and I really can do better. Time to time I have beaten my friend multiple times but I have fun playing. If you guys read this I just want you to keep trying. I'm still on my journey to be more humble and cheerful towards smash and other games. I do believe that each and every smash competitor can improve their skills and be the best. I don't think anyone would read this. I just want to share something that's worth mentioning especially to those having a hard time. Anyway, have fun :D